Isn't it difficult..?

This is very unconventional reason of being unhappy! People often get hurt by other’s behavior or words. Sometimes some unwanted circumstances fill the life with sadness and we cannot avoid them! But it is more painful when one tries to act opposite to one’s own nature. As I use to tell my friends that I am the biggest research topic of myself. I like to introspect within myself and analyze my strengths and weaknesses! While doing this, I frequently feel that I am a weird creation of God. But that’s what making me different from others and in fact everyone is weird in his/her own way! Sometimes, during analysis of my weakness, I decide to improve on that part and so continuously examine myself to check whether I am repeating that. And if I observe myself inclined towards that “temporary no entry” zone, then I try to pull myself in the opposite direction of my nature. Now, it’s difficult! Painful! Disturbing! On one hand, I feel happy that I am improvising on that part but actually it really hurts. Walking in the valley of mix emotions, I find myself helpless until I come back to my originality. But ultimately I feel contented that I at least work on my weakness and at one stage or another it helps…definitely!